i have disturbing dream where i was about to go do group assignment project and then get tangled up with many activities and accident. so the school is looked like my junior high, and we were abt to go to the destination where the assignment take place. and then suddenly i get caught up with idk what but i was outside and then the skies turn dark as it means its night already. the school are closed and im about to go get my bicycle but it locked and then somehow the sky turn bright meaning it was morning, so i can get my bicycle. but my ass! it was sunday and i couldnt get in. skip i forget this part but somehow my bicycle is outside and i park it accidentally on the side of institute across the street. so all i had in mind was how i can use a slipper???or sandal. and i go to the main building which was a building of my institute where i have my bachelor degree (irl) which like a valley and then when i was about to go to the highest top to look for sandal, there are a few cars passin
i am not gonna write it beautifully, never will. i have never felt lost so deep like those days, ever. i have never felt so empty like those days, ever. but... have i ever thought of this: maybe this is the best condition , the best possible outcome there ever was, and it has to be like this to teach each party about lost, about tolerance, about how we always had to set our standard bar so low that the other party would love to step on you every sometime whatever necessary. guess what, i am done doing that. i am done doing whatever the society tells me to do. i have so much tolerance and it began to decreasing to the point i don't even care if i don't have anyone in this world to share my thoughts at, i don't care if even no one would know if i am about to die in that room all alone, i don't. boundaries. what is that? how do one set one? how? should u tell the other party? or silently having them on your thoughts until it squeeze out and you got nothin